I don't wanna grow up

It is starting to seem that as I grow older, the more and more I wish I was still at a younger age. Therefore sometimes I feel like I don't want to ever grow up, which leads me thinking about life when I was younger and how much I'd appreciate more to not do adult things. If I had a choice to either stay a child my whole life or grow up and be an adult, I think right now I would chose to grow up.
Looking back to when I was a kid, not 11 or 12 but prior to that, say 4 or 5, life was pretty swell. There was nothing too stressful to worry about, just things like what color popsicle to go after and who to say my best friend is. It was rather nice not having all the responsibilities that life hands down to you as you get older, and the simple activities were enough to keep me busy and happy. With that said, after growing older and finding a more complex life to live, it is worth having all these good and bad things that come with it. Think of this analogy if you are confused: (I was inspired after eating an apple today) Person A has an apple. Person B has an identical apple as person A. So time goes by, and person A decides not to bite into the apple. Person A does not know what will happen if they do, so they play it safe and do not take the chance. On the other hand, person B bites into the apple. Two things happen. First off, person B bites too hard into the apple and ends up enduring the pain of losing a tooth. After the pain is gone, person B takes another bite and enjoys the delicious taste of the apple. Understand? Person A is that child that never grows up, staying a child for their whole life and enduring neither the good nor bad life has in store for us. Person A is that guy that grows up, fighting the hardships in life and enjoying the pleasures.
If I had the choice to stay a child my whole life, I'd chose not to take it. I'd take the risk of growing up 100 out of 100 opportunities. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to grow up. Who does? It sucks being an adult and dealing with what adults deal with. But at the same time, I need to grow up. It is inevitable. I'd rather suffer all evil that comes with growing up in order to experience all of the good stuff, such as driving, traveling, starting a family, etc. then not have either of the two at all.

I know if from an outside perspective, this might indeed sound crazy, but if you are willing to have the patience needed to furthermore think about this subject I strongly suggest you read the novel, "The Giver" by Lois Lowry. It somewhat parallels to what I am saying here, and maybe it will spark some thoughts as it did when I read it.

Whats going on in my life, you may ask?

I got a car over the weekend. Its pretty sick and I can't wait to drive it alone when I get my license in three weeks. It is a used silver Hyundai Sante Fe, a very fine car for a new driver if I might add.

I haven't been really watching too many movies anymore. I did see some though, because I am an addict and cannot go a weekend without watching at least one. I saw Police Academy, Glory Road, and Enemy of State, all of which I suggest you see.

My new music consists of songs made by Sigur Ros. They are rather motivational. Although they do not contain that many words, the use of instruments and sound devices is phenomenal.


Quote of the day: "What you do with your time helps to define you, so be sure you're making the most of it."


Let there be no wasted time in our lives. No regrets, just lessons learned.

'Till I write again.

Josh

Stupid people doing stupid things

I don't like stupid people. I also don't like going to bed and waking up early in the morning for school. Maybe I'm not a person who likes to be organized and on a schedule, or maybe I just like to do what I want and that does not include a schedule. Now back to stupid people. Its not that they are necessarily stupid its just that they don't spend enough time thinking about what they do before they actually do it. For example, today was a pretty important day for try-outs on the high school golf team. So we went to Hole in One and did our thing on the mini-par 3 course. There was this kid there, had to have been a freshman or a sophmore, that was pretty damn awful. You could really tell he's never played golf before when he banks a shot into the water on a hole about 3 or 4 times before finally giving up. But I have nothing wrong with that, because at one point in time I was that freshman loser that couldn't hit a golf ball for his life. Things are different now though I've been taught how to play golf well but theres always room for improvement. Alright we're now on like the 6th hole, which has a pretty big lake guarding the green. So the kid keeps shanking it left into the water, but he somehow gets it onto the green safely after basically his 8th stroke. Anyway, the point of the story is the kid lies about his score when asked by one of the varsity guys from last season. He looks at him with a sorta confused look. Then he turns to me and I give him this "don't believe that shit" face and shake my head. There is one thing I can't stand and that is being lied to. He's stupid enough to think that we are oblivious to the world and can not score correctly. And in doing so with two kids who have been on the team for years is just even more foolish.

I gotta admit sometimes I'm just as bad as that kid. I cheat sorta often in school on tests and shit. Teachers should be able to catch us more often but they're only there for a pay check, so I'll take as much as they will give us. Its pretty funny how many kids cheat and get away with it. Gotta be at least 3/4 of our school. I know it won't be put up with in the real world, but I'm way too lazy to change my ways right now.

I'm too tired to be blogging for the moment, I had to do some last minute stuff for school like usual. I'm an extreme procrastinator by the way. Until tomorrow, to be continued, c ya later peace out and good night.

jsiegz

"This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo"-Eminem

While sitting at my kitchen table this morning, taking an SAT practice test for my tutor, a thought came into my mind. 20 years from now, is all this going to matter? Is it going to really going to make a difference if i have a B+ GPA as opposed to an A- GPA? Or can that kid who gets a B- GPA be more successful than those students who got an A GPA. And what about the SAT scores. Will it matter if i get a 1100 instead of close to a 1300? Does my SAT scores really matter to whether or not I can be successful and happy in life? Does any of all this high school pressurized competition B.S. matter in the real world?

I've heard from some people it does, and from others it doesn't. 20 years from now, where ever I am, i will be sure to come back to this blog, if the Internet (or world) hasn't blown up by then, and answer the questions I am currently asking myself (as a junior in high school) for all you readers out there.

The basis of the creation and thought-process that went into starting this topic actually came from yesterday. After a morning spent exercising and playing basketball at the local gym, my family and I took a trip to New York. I usually spend the car rides listening to my Ipod. So we went to this big-time Italian owned car dealership and I bought my first car. I'm bringing it home next Saturday and am pretty excited. All will be well when I actually get my license in April. Anyway, all of the car ride home I was thinking about all this good stuff. Life, college, jobs, death, the usual. I feel like getting a car is a new beginning. I will have the chance to live a different life, based more on what I want and less according to what my parents and other people would like. Simply put I'll have more control.

Getting my first car is only one chapter of my life. It is only one start-over. It is only one chance to do things differently. I find that there are many times where I want things to be different. I want to be a different person, live a different life, and do different things. I constantly think about that, and although the past 16 years of my life have been greatly shaped from my parents and environment I am slowly but surely pulling off the layers of influence I have received and developing my own way to live.

Alright, I have finished with that thought for now and will come back at another time. I haven't been watching that many movies recently, probably I have seen a couple of bad ones and got turned off.

I have seen a few good ones, such as Instinct, Ratatouille, and Man of Honor. All of which I highly recommend you go out and see.

Music. Although I have only explored the band Travis a little bit, they are very talented and consist of what I consider good music. My Switchfoot addiction has indeed worn off, even though I sometimes find myself humming their songs. I know a big bulk of their albums. The rest of what I have been listening to is made up of a few single artists with only a few songs out. But besides that I've concentrated a lot of my music towards Bob Marley. Its hard to really appreciate his music without living in the time period from which it comes from, but I think I am coming fairly close. He's one of the best artists ever. I also like Wyclef Jean. He's had a few hit songs but looking further into his music I've found some pretty cool stuff he's made.

Well that's about it for now, I have a tough 2 week stretch of school coming up and then its off to Puerto Rico during Spring Break.

Lata Gata

Josh